howcouldiknow

The camera that I used to take these photographs was stolen last week.  It’s replaceable but sentimental.  it’s ok, but I’m still pissed. These are from this summer while I was in Columbus, Ohio.  (Don’t ask why I shot black and white.  It wasn’t intentional.)  These are markers of such an emotionally intense time that [...]

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I spent the evening scanning again, I can’t seem to get the dust under control, so once I get around to doing real edits of these files I am sure it will involve hours of dust removal. I have been really pleased with the overall image quality with my Epson flatbed. I guess this roll [...]

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I have found a lab in Chicago and had a load of 35 waiting around get processed.  Fired up my scanner and after a few bumps I have everything up and running.  I missed using my little white gloves and dust blower.  it does make me miss chain smoking like I did on breaks from [...]

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I have been trying to rework my approach to my creativity and art making.  Trying to step away from all the analyzing, expectations and negativity that I throw at myself.  I have been picking random avenues for my creativity that are not the camera and these feel much more free.  Anything else I do is [...]

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Currently reading: The Ghost Writer by Philip Roth Currently listening: Minisink Hotel by She Keeps Bees It has been almost 2 months since I returned to Chicago.  I haven’t been back to Columbus even one time yet.  Every day I feel guilty about this but if nothing else I have the substantial excuse that I [...]

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Back in Chicago.  Settling into my apartment.  Missing my sister already.  Washed all my clothes and bought 90 dollars worth of groceries.  I go back to work tomorrow.  Tomorrow.  And I am really anxious.  Hell if I know why.  It’s not a new job, it’s the same people and the same place and the same [...]

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My brother has recently decided to transition to living full time as a woman.  Until a month ago I have never known that my brother was experiencing gender dysphoria.  He has dealt his whole life with an irreconcilable physical sex and subconscious understanding of his gender.  Previous to this I have believed in being an [...]

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The exciting news is that I have gotten away for the weekend.  I flew into Chicago this morning and am getting on a Megabus to Minneapolis tomorrow at 6 AM.  This is no impulsive get away, it is a trip to the Minneapolis Indie Expo that has been on the calendar for months.  So I [...]

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