howcouldiknow

Ok.  God who knew blogging could be so challenging.  Having a blog that no one reads somehow is still this burdensome guilt trip, like a dying houseplant that you keep walking by but not watering.  Me posting here again is part of what is possibly a process of me stepping back onto the grid per say.

I moved to Chicago 6 weeks and 2 days ago.  I have interviewed for a job I really wanted, only interviewed.  I have worked as a barista at a pharmaceutical convention.  Biked 127 miles (Yes I keep track).  Applied for a billion other jobs.  Started doing creative needlework (???).  Started cooking again, and seeing live music.  Also, I have read half of East of Eden (300 pages) which I am in love with.  I am employed at a cafe here but I am only working about 25 hours a week.  Which is leaving me strangely unstressed and with free time.  A thing that was foreign to me for most of my career at RIT.  I have been doing what I want and having fun, enjoying summer and Chicago.

The weird part is, I haven’t thought about photography, I haven’t thought about my work.  I have been responding to job postings every day and pursuing a better financial situation but not pursuing my work at all.  I haven’t been being adamant about being involved in the arts scene, and keeping up on what is going on in the world, art or otherwise.

So today I submitted to a juried photography exhibition.  I opened Photoshop for the first time in months.  I looked at my own images.  I spent time prowling the Chicago Artists Resource website which is a pretty great resource.  From here I applied for a Volunteer Artist mentor program that is run in Logan Square (Which is pretty much my hood).  

Also I want to keep up with On The Make and other blogs/listings to try to catch more openings, apartment gallery events etc.

This is me.  I have a tan sort of.  I look grumpy but only because I am in a cafe and super focused on the act of internet.  It is very hot outside.

So long story short, I want to blog.  I want to promote my photography.  Hypothetically if I can ever get financially stable (I will) I would like to begin to photograph again.  I want to get more connected with Chicago and meet more people here.  I want to show everyone pictures of my Thai Green Curry.

And so I leave you with a reference to East of Eden by John Steinbeck.  Its actually a conversation about a translation of the Jewish world Timshel explained in greater detail here.  But the word is translated to mean ‘thou mayest’  implying the rein of man over his own sin, his own actions.